Covid hit my emotions hard and I didn’t even know why. It was a journey in itself to simply figuring out what was happening to me so I could remedy why I felt so bad.
In this video I explain how I figured out what was wrong and what I did to help myself feel good again naturally, simply and with compassion for myself.
If you haven’t heard my Covid story, here goes the short of it:
- I was coming home in March after 2.5 years abroad.
- We had an amazing little apartment picked out. It even had a beautiful view of Kootenay lake and the Canadian Rockies.
- I was coming home to friends, loved ones, family — stoked to spend time together, get out and make amazing content for you and enjoy the wild.
- All of that fell to pieces pretty much precisely when we got home.
- We got put on lockdown staying with my Dad.
- We lost the apartment because the people in it couldn’t move.
- We could not hang out.
- People in this small community started freaking out.
- The government was even pressured to close the parks. No content. No running. Exercise got extremely difficult. Gah!
I realized the stress of all of this disappointment coupled with not knowing enough about the future to make plans made me … depressed.
I realized this week that I just have to roll with the punches right now. There is so much good coming out of this very bleak time. My wounds, everyone’s wounds, are being brought to the fore for us to HEAL.
Last week I wrote my email list about being gentle with ourselves.That’s what I needed. I think that’s what we all need right now.
To take it easy on myself is to let myself heal.
I vowed to remember this:
- Healing happens on its own, I just have to let it. Take space.
- Focussing on habit at a time gives me clarity. There’s so much that needs to be replaced right now that one thing at a time makes more sense than ever.
- All progress is good progress. I’m playing for the long game here — one baby step in the right direction is still the righteous path to my best life.
- Everyone is in the same boat. That’s why sometimes it seems hard to deal with others — some are handling their feelings very badly.
- I need help more than ever. People out there have the answers to the new questions I’m having, but I have to rethink and rework how I look at the challenges to make sure I’m asking the right ones.
- Nothing lasts forever, and every crappy feeling is an opportunity to heal and grow stronger.
When I remember this, the fog begins to clarify… and lift. I can see the sun in the reflection of everything I do and I’m happy again.
